His Grace IS sufficient

Hello. About five minutes ago I realized I left my groceries in the car, completely forgot about them. As a newly single mom, life has been a whirlwind to say the least. I left a very abusive relationship last August. I stepped out with my mustard seed of faith and had to walk away. I felt like I couldn't make it one more day. I spent 5 years praying, begging God to please save my marriage, to please work on our hearts, most especially for God to speak to my husbands heart so that he would become a Godly leader for our home. A home where love is patient and kind not neglectful and harsh. Looking back it is a blur for me all the pain I went through, I held on to God's promise that he will complete the work he started in us. It took me a while to realize that my husband did not want those things whole heartedly. I waited and prayed, prayed and waited. And then one day it all came together very quickly, I had family and friends rallied around me to help me move myself and our four year old daughter out of that terrible environment. The last week we were there I had called my mom and told her he wouldn't buy us groceries or even let me use either if our vehicles to go to the store. My sister in law came and took me to the store with the money I made from secretly selling my wedding rings. I kept that hidden so he wouldn't steal the money. I placed it behind a picture frame on my dresser and prayed he wouldn't grow suspicious as to why I was no longer wearing my rings. That week, God spoke. He spoke to my sister in law when she urgently stated, its time for you to leave. He spoke when my mom called and said you can cone live with us for a while, its going to be alright. He spoke again when my family and friends from church came to pack us up and get us out in a matter of hours. He spoke when I landed a job very quickly. I was signed up and ready to go to Nursing school at LU before things got worse. I had worked as a CNA for a year and had felt called to that field, it was so rewarding helping others. I am so thankful for my time in the healthcare field, it taught me so much. I grew emotionally and spiritually because God showed me that I absolutely CAN do ALL things through Christ who Strengthens me. That all changed when I had to quit my job at his request to care for my little one when she was very sick, he refused. More control and abuse was the outcome. I was stuck, or so he thought. On a tiny seed of faith, I left. I left with no job and brought only Emma's furniture and toys and of course our clothes. I didn't want her to be without her favorite things, some normalcy. I battled for that. The rest, I left to him. His castle of material things. I was hired very quickly after submitting résumés, the job was an eye care clinic, a christian one. I an thankful for that opportunity. Something still didn't feel right and I received a call within my first month and they said they were doing away with my position altogether. They over hired and didn't need me. I was baffled, I questioned God a lot that day. He said be patient, I have something better in store for you. What happened next blew me away. My sister in law called me and said that I needed to be ready for an interview in an hour. An HOUR.she had applied for a job and decided it wasn't for her. She told them that it wasn't for her and that she knew someone that would be perfect, and asked if I could have her interview spot. They said yes. An hour later, all nerves and uncertainty I winged it. I got the job. It has provided more security than the last and is something I could see myself doing for a very long time. In the interview I was so nervous because I hadn't finished college, and at my age I felt like that was an accomplishment I needed under my belt to even be considered for this position. But it didn't matter, and I got the job. I am learning first hand and can go back to school anytime I want because it's never too late. A new day is always dawning. I started working and moved me and miss Emma into our own place a month later, I purchased furniture here and there. Its really starting to feel like home now. I just bought pure white corelle (always wanted a set) dishes for us to eat on...bye bye paper plates!! The car that I was driving when I left was a nightmare, I had absolutely no brakes the day I moved... Thankfully it was my step dad driving it when we learned this. Several repairs later it was drivable and then on Christmas day it literally blew up, smoke and all. I guess God wanted us in a nicer ride because Jan. 1st I financed my very own pure white car. He is making ALL things new. The sunroof wouldn't close all the way on the old car and it was cold, I kept Emma bundled up but it was still chilly and God just wasnt having that. I was perfectly content with no car payment but God wants the best for us. I am still rising from the fire and he is setting my feet on solid ground. He is reigning, he has tucked us under his wings. He knows I am broken and imperfect but he loves me anyway. We have one more hurdle to face and I know God will prevail again, he allow his perfect will and we will not just be ok, but held by a MIGHTY and JUST and LOVING KING. If he is for us....then who...tell me who could ever be against us?