As a Christian, I will be the first to say I am not perfect, or blameless because I am a believer. I am still a sinner, unworthy of God's love. But he loves me anyway, thank GOD. I have prayed for my relationship with him to deepen, and grow more intimate...for him to be my ALL-CONSUMING fire again. A revival. What I haven't mentioned is I wasn't exactly doing my part 100%. Let me explain. I Pray all the time, I try and lead a good, honest life that centers around God. But I haven't been totally sold out in a long time and that has been the reason why I haven't delved deeper with my creator, Savior, KING. I jumped on the bandwagon of reading romance books starting with twilight, and twilight is PG, BUT it left me craving more and voila fifty shades of grey comes along and I along with many other Christian women jumped on that bandwagon...and that has been a slippery slope because my reading time has been consumed with book after book of love stories that are not realistic and perverted. I said it ladies...PERVERTED. I didn't feel guilty for so long, and at the same time I am praying for my relationship with God to deepen. Boy did I have BLINDERS on! In order for God to be all-consuming, we have to be SOLD OUT completely...not just in the areas that are convenient for us but in EVERYTHING. HE wants it ALL. Jesus PAID it ALL upon that Cross...isn't that enough of a LOVE story? That is the THE ultimate LOVE story. God is SO good, All the time, and he knew that I needed a sort of revival in order for me to see where I was going wrong and that I have been blind to Satans subtle attack. That's how he gets you. John 10:9-11 says: 9"I am the door; if anyone enters through Me, he will be saved, and will go in and out and find pasture. 10"The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly. 11"I am the good shepherd; the good shepherd lays down His life for the sheep.…" Looking back I feel so foolish, none of those stories of Mr. Brooding eyes can ever compare to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, who wants me...ME? He wanted to save me so much he laid down his life. Jesus paid it all, all to him I owe.
I encourage anyone who may read this to go see the movie, GOD'S NOT DEAD!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hs05AtP2wd8
Amy
Girl. You nailed this one. I felt the same way. I started with Twilight and soon after became obsessed with Fifty Shades and those books are totally and completely consuming...and like you said so unrealistic. I actually did a social networking/book cleanse and committed to opening my Bible and reading a passage every time I was tempted to scroll through facebook or instagram or even pick up a book. It was life-changing and I'm so thankful I woke up! I haven't seen God's Not Dead yet but I really reallyyyyy want to. And by the way I'm so happy you're blogging. Yay for bloggy friends! :)
ReplyDeleteThank you:) I am not one to do as others are doing, but I literally knew so many other Christian moms/wives that were doing the same and it furthered my belief that it was ok to read these books, but, it did not work that way in the end! He got ahold of me good haha. Nothing like a guilty conscience to convince you otherwise! Thankful for that still small voice that guides my soul! Happy blogging friend!
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